Angkor Wat

I just came from this place. It is awesome! The villa is not bad either, it was super cheap too!

what am i getting myself into?

oh what an over thinker. your analysis is still lacking, so why bother? you believe them. you know they're right.

think think until you can think no more.

eyebags. sleepless nights. exhausted mornings--your prize for all.
oh, dear thoughts, haunt her no more...

and so here you are...leaving it all to faith--jumping and giving in to what feels right.

oh but a few seconds before, you fidget and ask:"what am I getting myself into?"

i rolled my eyes and thought: "mind it not, let it go...you're still a stubborn over thinking fool."

the sandbar at bais, oriental negros

the sandbar at bais, oriental negros
Originally uploaded by ayeeners

it's been more than three years since i last went to the beach. sad, i know. i didn't realize, until i got to this place, what i've been missing out on.

crazy. what was i thinking?! why was i so caught up at work? it definitely wasn't worth all the hours i put in.

beautiful. i now understand, how beauty can affect you, revive you. make you feel alive. i've changed with just a view of this place. i am alive. i can feel it now.

fin

i move, i smile
i laugh and jeer

suddenly...

stillness
silence
darkness

fin.

a choice

it's crunch time.
many things to do.
many things to finish.
i realize, i bit off more than i can chew.

time is never enough.
sleep becomes my enemy.
work is just too much.
i'm gasping for air, choking.

will i sink or swim?
will i live to see another day?
maybe, it's time i get out of the water
(i'll be able to do more when i'm in dry land, anyway!)

a thought

Losers. Winners.
What makes them?
Choice.